Patience. I'm still learning these lesson time and time again.
I never seem to learn it the first time, or the second, or the one hundredth. This has always been an area I've struggled in and I feel like it'll always be an area I struggle in for the rest of my life. As I continue to grow, I've started to notice a lot of areas in my life in which I can be impatient in: driving, with others, with the Lord's timing, school, marriage. It's difficult when it seems so easy to take things into my own hands and do things how I would want to do them.
So generally, the root of all my impatience is attributed to selfishness. I want things done in accordance to my plans, my time, my preferences. It's rather horrible. It's even more horrible when I start to justify my selfishness in my mind. Somehow, in some way, shape or form, I manage to justify my selfish actions.
Submission. I'm still learning this as well.
I'm learning to submit to the God-given authority in my life, even when I still don't understand everything. It's hard to submit when I don't see any concrete evidence for reasonings. It's hard to submit when I think I'm right. It's hard to submit with a happy heart, or a heart of obedience. It's hard to submit when I feel like I've given every reason possible to pursue something and yet the answer is still no.
Again, the root of my unwillingness to submit with a happy heart is rooted in my selfishness. The wanting of my own desires and fulfillment of my ideas. I would say selfishness makes it very easy not to submit to the God-given authority in my life.
As I ponder all these things, I can't help but think of how sinful I am in my though process in both patience and submission. It does come down to my pride and selfishness. And when I think this way, I'm ashamed. I'm ashamed because I remember Jesus' example and ultimate display of submission to even death on a cross. Here I am, having such an ungrateful heart and discontentment in the little things, but not like I had to experience God's full and complete wrath to punish sin. It's because of Christ that I have been made right in the eyes of God. I've been forgiven of all my sins. It is because of Christ's death on the cross that my soul is counted as righteousness and holy. So then I look at myself and reflect on my own attitude. Why do I justify my selfishness to not be patient or submissive? It's the easy thing to do.
JP was gracious to point me to Christ and reminded me that submission doesn't only occur when it's convenient or easy. Submission happens when its hard, when it doesn't make sense. And to submit to the God-given authority of my life because it brings glory to the Lord. The Lord is teaching me patience and submission constantly and it's a battle every time. But it's by His grace and mercy that I can continue to push towards patience and submission. It's by His strength that I can and have accomplish what I've accomplished. I just pray that the Lord would be glorified in every aspect of my life: thought, word, and action. I pray that He would give me the endurance and humble attitude to act patiently and to submit with a happy heart.
Saturday, April 20, 2013
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
Contentment within this Season
As the holiday season approaches, many are frantically flooding the mall hoping to find things for others and find things for themselves that might possibly make them content.
But how long does that contentment last?
Are we as a human race only to find happiness for a short amount of time and then move onto something else that might temporarily satisfy our happiness as well?
We keep running this race of setting up goals for ourselves. We find ourselves running at things saying, "Just one more! Then I'll be satisfied." What are we trying to satisfy in the first place? We turn to possessions, relationships, food, music, you name it, to fill this void that we can't seem to fill.
Whether we want to acknowledge it or not, we are searching for things that only One can wholly satisfy. Why are we looking to the temporary to satisfy our eternal needs?
As Christians, it is so easy to be influenced by our culture. A little too easy. Our culture tells us what we need, what we want, who we need to be. But as Christians, where does our identity lie?
Paul says in the letter to the Ephesians that because of what Christ has done on the cross on our behalf, we are "no longer strangers and aliens, but are fellow citizens with the saints and members of the household of God..." and "Therefore [we are to] be imitators of God, as beloved children. And walk in love, as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us, a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God" (2, 5:1-2). So since "I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life of I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me" (Galatians 2:20).
Since we are in Christ, who is our everything, why do we turn to worldly possessions in hope to find satisfaction? Is God not all-knowing? Is He not sufficient for you? "And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:19).
We have become a selfish human race, unfortunately. This is what our culture presses upon us: that we should hold ourselves high, consider ourselves, and have self-empowerment. Who are we to steal glory from God who deserves all the glory?
He gave us the ultimate gift that no one else could give. He sent His only Son, Jesus Christ, to die on our behalf. "Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us... " (Galatians 3:13). We are a sinful race. There is absolutely nothing that we, as a sinful human race, can do to win even the slightest favor in God's eyes. "So then it depends not on human will or exertion, but on God, who has mercy" (Romans 9:29). Christ died in our place that was rightfully ours. And to prove that He was Lord, he rose from the dead three days later. "In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins" (1 John 4:10). So then, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9).
So instead of considering how we feel or what we want this holiday season, why not consider the good works that God has done for us. Stop contemplating on things that you don't have, but be grateful for what you already have: salvation in Christ.
But how long does that contentment last?
Are we as a human race only to find happiness for a short amount of time and then move onto something else that might temporarily satisfy our happiness as well?
We keep running this race of setting up goals for ourselves. We find ourselves running at things saying, "Just one more! Then I'll be satisfied." What are we trying to satisfy in the first place? We turn to possessions, relationships, food, music, you name it, to fill this void that we can't seem to fill.
Whether we want to acknowledge it or not, we are searching for things that only One can wholly satisfy. Why are we looking to the temporary to satisfy our eternal needs?
As Christians, it is so easy to be influenced by our culture. A little too easy. Our culture tells us what we need, what we want, who we need to be. But as Christians, where does our identity lie?
Paul says in the letter to the Ephesians that because of what Christ has done on the cross on our behalf, we are "no longer strangers and aliens, but are fellow citizens with the saints and members of the household of God..." and "Therefore [we are to] be imitators of God, as beloved children. And walk in love, as Christ loved us and gave himself up for us, a fragrant offering and sacrifice to God" (2, 5:1-2). So since "I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life of I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me" (Galatians 2:20).
Since we are in Christ, who is our everything, why do we turn to worldly possessions in hope to find satisfaction? Is God not all-knowing? Is He not sufficient for you? "And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus" (Philippians 4:19).
We have become a selfish human race, unfortunately. This is what our culture presses upon us: that we should hold ourselves high, consider ourselves, and have self-empowerment. Who are we to steal glory from God who deserves all the glory?
He gave us the ultimate gift that no one else could give. He sent His only Son, Jesus Christ, to die on our behalf. "Christ redeemed us from the curse of the law by becoming a curse for us... " (Galatians 3:13). We are a sinful race. There is absolutely nothing that we, as a sinful human race, can do to win even the slightest favor in God's eyes. "So then it depends not on human will or exertion, but on God, who has mercy" (Romans 9:29). Christ died in our place that was rightfully ours. And to prove that He was Lord, he rose from the dead three days later. "In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins" (1 John 4:10). So then, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness" (1 John 1:9).
So instead of considering how we feel or what we want this holiday season, why not consider the good works that God has done for us. Stop contemplating on things that you don't have, but be grateful for what you already have: salvation in Christ.
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
Hope for Sudan: Micah 6:8
Border Region, Sudan, Africa.
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| Photo courtesy of Kyle Kim and Global Post |
This is where my heart goes.
This is where my heart breaks.
Right now, in Sudan, there are 200,000 civilians being starved to death.
This has gone on for several years.
Unfortunately, this has been brought to my attention recently.
And now, I bring it to yours. So please, bear with me. Pray with us. Join us.
Where we sit as a country, we are comfortable, in our homes and offices.
Where Sudan sits as a country, they are running. Running on empty. Running for their lives. They are dying.
We, as a country, have so much.
And what of the Sudanese people? They have their hunger, fear and imminent death.
What can we do?
These are the facts and this is our mission:
I ask that you join us. Help us. Help us help these people.
Help us by praying, giving or going.
PRAY:
Pray BOLDLY. Our God is mighty. He can do all things.
Pray for this effort.
Pray for Sudan.
Pray for this effort.
Pray for Sudan.
Pray for the people.
Their physical state, their bodies, their lives. There is a lack of food.
Their physical state, their bodies, their lives. There is a lack of food.
Their spiritual state, their souls, their eternal lives. Though their lives, here, on earth, have value, this value is insignificant in comparison to their eternal souls.
Pray that they hear the gospel and be renewed and transformed by it.
Pray that they hear of Jesus Christ, what He has accomplished for us on the cross and believe.
Pray for their leaders. That they would come to know Christ, repent and follow Him.
Pray for those that are saved. That they would have perseverance through this fight.
GIVE:
As you know, the first stage of our effort is to raise $25,000 in five weeks. We ask that you give as much as you can, whether it be $1, $10, $100. Anything will help us mobilize this mission.
You can DONATE HERE or send a check to the following address:
Hope Church of San Mateo
PO Box 25268
San Mateo, CA 94402
Be encouraged to know that we have raised 20% of our goal, so far.
Will you join our efforts?
We have so much to give. So will you?
GO:
We are not asking you to go to Sudan this instant, although it is very needed. We are asking you to
Go educate yourself. Find more to this issue that what's been provided here. (Links provided below with additional information.)
Go inform your family, friends, co-workers.
Go tell everyone you know, not just the people you think will make a difference.
Go raise awareness on this topic.
Go repost this blog or our site: hope4sudan.hopesanmateo.org
Go get involved with us at Hope.
Our efforts here are not to make much of ourselves, but to make much of Christ, who has given us more than we could ever repay.
So I, as your friend, ask you to pray, give AND go.
GIVE:
As you know, the first stage of our effort is to raise $25,000 in five weeks. We ask that you give as much as you can, whether it be $1, $10, $100. Anything will help us mobilize this mission.
You can DONATE HERE or send a check to the following address:
Hope Church of San Mateo
PO Box 25268
San Mateo, CA 94402
Be encouraged to know that we have raised 20% of our goal, so far.
Will you join our efforts?
We have so much to give. So will you?
GO:
We are not asking you to go to Sudan this instant, although it is very needed. We are asking you to
Go educate yourself. Find more to this issue that what's been provided here. (Links provided below with additional information.)
Go inform your family, friends, co-workers.
Go tell everyone you know, not just the people you think will make a difference.
Go raise awareness on this topic.
Go repost this blog or our site: hope4sudan.hopesanmateo.org
Go get involved with us at Hope.
Our efforts here are not to make much of ourselves, but to make much of Christ, who has given us more than we could ever repay.
So I, as your friend, ask you to pray, give AND go.
Additional information about the events that have occurred in Sudan:
Sunday, June 17, 2012
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18
Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus for you.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 ESV
This truly was my theme this whole 2nd year around in college. There were most definitely many things to pray, rejoice and give thanks about.
I got all my classes that I needed regardless of my late registration date.
I took Anatomy Lecture, Anatomy Lab (mind you, this class came with a cadaver... or 13), ASL 4, Intro to Jazz, and Educational Psychology in Children. I was also a T.A. for an ASL 1 class.
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| "So, uh, you know that anatomy final I was supposed to study for?" |
My schedule consisted of study, study and study. I was most definitely busy. If not with school, it was with the acappella group and Bible Study.
The Acappella group went on tour during spring break in Northern California.That was most definitely fun. I don't know if I want to do that this next year, seeing how much work and time was put into this, but I'll do it again another time. Just not next year.
On tour in Northern California!
Bible Study was most definitely an adventure. I had the joy in being a part of a small group and in this small group, we went through "Praying Backwards" by Bryan Chapell. This book was such an encouragement to me. I really would recommend you read this. It's obvious that prayers are meant to be a reflection of the heart, but I often times find my prayers becoming repetitious. This book has reshaped my prayer life.So as you can see, there was a lot to be praying, rejoicing and giving thanks about. I most definitely couldn't have done any of this with my own strength. The Lord was my source of strength. Through this all, the Lord was reminding me on a daily basis of his goodness, simply from waking me up in the morning to start my day. Why is it that we only thank God for the big things in life? Is it because it's more noticeable? Why not give thanks to the Lord for every single little thing, regardless of how significant or insignificant?
I can tell you that it is easier relying on the Lord when things get rough. The challenge I faced was to continuously praise the Lord when things were good. Kind of odd, seeing that it's the opposite for others. When things were good and easy, I started finding other things to occupy my time instead of filling it with being in the word or praying. I was instantly convicted of this. 1 Thessalonians 5: 16-18 calls us to praise and give thanks to the Lord in all circumstances. When things are going well, I found it easy to turn attention away from God and to myself. I was content with where I was. I didn't see any needs to change it because things were going so well.
But it is because of the Lord that I live, breathe, and walk this earth. It is by him that I can be his child, his own. It's all by him that I can be called his own. It is by him that I understand and live in light of the gospel. My understanding that I am nothing apart from Christ.That I am shown grace on a daily basis. That God sent his perfect, holy son, Jesus, to die on the cross for my sins and raise again from the dead to prove that he was lord. That it is by the Lord that my desires are his desires, to turn away from my sins and live a life that is honoring and glorifying to him. And for this I praise him for everything.
Along with this year came new friendships that were most definitely made and treasured. I wouldn't change a single thing about any of them. I'm praying that I can continue to keep up with these relationships and that they grow into lifelong relationships.
Speaking of relationships...
Wednesday, February 29, 2012
Small Update :)
So it's a Leap Year and I thought, why not blog on a leap day? :) and plus you all are due for an update.
Although it has only been one month since my last blog post, I can say that a lot has happened. And to be quite honest, it sure doesn't feel like it has only been a month.
In January, I was fortunate enough to go snowboarding with one of my very good and old friend. No snow, unfortunately, so we had to settle for man made snow. It was a great way to just sit back and enjoy God's creation. Also a very nice break from everyday life. :)
Then when I got back to school, this new gym opened up. It has an indoor track, an amazing rock wall, basketball courts and multiple studio classes. Opening day was kind of crazy seeing how everyone wanted in. It's amazing and I utilize it almost every day!
Until school really started up, then I had to exercise discipline. I had to purposefully restrain myself from going to the gym to study... anatomy... this class is challenging and yet due to the oh so very fair school grading system, I get 1 unit for this course. How nice! I get to work my tail off only to receive 1 unit...
But to buffer this anxiety induced by anatomy, it's time for auditions for my acappella group :) We have seen so many talented individuals this semester and hope to grow as a group to be bigger and better than the groups before - to constantly be growing and striving to be better. I'm excited to see of what this new group is capable.
Amidst everyday life, I've managed to squeeze in a couple of new friends ;) I'm excited to see God working in both my and their lives! Soli Deo Gloria!
Acts 20:24
"But I do not account my life of any value nor as precious to myself, if only I may finish my course and the ministry that I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify the gospel of the grace of God."
Although it has only been one month since my last blog post, I can say that a lot has happened. And to be quite honest, it sure doesn't feel like it has only been a month.
Then when I got back to school, this new gym opened up. It has an indoor track, an amazing rock wall, basketball courts and multiple studio classes. Opening day was kind of crazy seeing how everyone wanted in. It's amazing and I utilize it almost every day!
Until school really started up, then I had to exercise discipline. I had to purposefully restrain myself from going to the gym to study... anatomy... this class is challenging and yet due to the oh so very fair school grading system, I get 1 unit for this course. How nice! I get to work my tail off only to receive 1 unit...
But to buffer this anxiety induced by anatomy, it's time for auditions for my acappella group :) We have seen so many talented individuals this semester and hope to grow as a group to be bigger and better than the groups before - to constantly be growing and striving to be better. I'm excited to see of what this new group is capable.
Amidst everyday life, I've managed to squeeze in a couple of new friends ;) I'm excited to see God working in both my and their lives! Soli Deo Gloria!
Acts 20:24
"But I do not account my life of any value nor as precious to myself, if only I may finish my course and the ministry that I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify the gospel of the grace of God."
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